Trying 2 remain focussed....

Hi everybody,

Had a not so OK day at work...ya finally am out of that training room...and not so OK day at the first day of work:-(. .We were allotted our projects today and I was unlucky... to say that bcoz din't get the sub vertical options as I desired...neways just tryin 2 be +ve and hoping to excel in whtever I am given....I always believed that in life there's nothing like "destiny"...there are only "choices" to be made...but here I guess....I din't even have a choice...chuck it...hope I do good with a lot of interest and enthu!!!

Feel like talkin 2 smbdy rite now, but koi network hi nahi mil raha hai :-(...bbye!!!

Vacationing.....

Hi guys,

B4 all of u start assuming what the hell I am upto at the start of my job..chill...I m still sane with the training going on but it's kind of a paid vacation...Enjoying it, but it sometimes gets a bit overboard...

Starting this week, we had a two day sales training - wondering y was it required...but to quote unquote our bosses "It is necessary 2 get a feel of the business...." We were supposed to be understanding the entire sales process- and the product that my company sells is a Push product and it is something which can only be "bought" it cannot be "sold"...OK...chuck all this marketing gyaan...

We were supposed to be assissting the marketing guys and see how the pitching process happens...Oh what a pain for the two days...some of my colleagues running from one end of town to the far end of suburbs...we were exhausted wildly and we just thanked our stars for bringing us to the right profession i.e. Finance and not Marketing...It really requires some extra terrestrial skills to convince these Indian people...

Today ---day was :-(....None of d trainers turned up except for 2 who took a combined session of 45 minutes...rest of d time was just whiling away time at the office cafetaria, library etc...and hence this "Vacationing"...comes into picture...All of us were damn bored at the end....

I just felt like...cut all this crap and give us our projects and let's just start work....But I am 2 sure...such days are not goin 2 return ever...So trying to live each moment!!!

Happy new year:-)))) Feedback:- (((((

Happy new year 2 all of u!!!!

Well, work has started but its just training and induction programmes that are going on now...so its no work pressure as such...office seems good......just keeping myself focussed and hoping 2 do well!!!!

I don't know this time around i neither send a single sms 2 all friends appearing for the CA final exams... and nor did I send for wishing Diwali or new year....dunno why...i kept delaying it till this time and had ppl calling me up 2 know whether I was ok, since i hadn't replied 2 their sms forwrds too.....and when they call up some of then have this strange habit of thrusting u with judgements, opinions and impressions which I hate ...so i thought b4 everybdy starts calling up, i might as well send d 2 line sms'es.....

Last 2-3 days have been really hectic......haven't slept more than 8 hours in a toto of 72 hours...one of my friends was appearing for the Final CA exams for the third time......Went 2 her place at Wednesday night after office...was awake the enitre night ..helping her revise that 1000 page book of Direct Taxes...then in the morning left for office....her paper was ok ok...i went to her place again after office in the evening...but cud not stretch it more..fell asleep at around 12 and got up at 5 in the morning on Diwali day...and we were studying...i had planned tht i wud go back home in the evening as we have a small puja at home and its nice to be at home on festivals....but the quantum of portion left 2 study in indirect taxes was just impossible 2 cover up till d evening...so called up dad and he told me its ok if u dont come...if she needs help u stay there..nd i was glad to here that. Mom was very wild....Was studying all books tht i had left reading a year back....but i had 2 decide was a puja more important or somebody's exam nd career ? and i m glad i decided 2 stay there...swear i was studying wid her as if I was also having my exams....she dint call me after this exam to tell how was it but i got a feedback frm others tht paper was very tough....ya i was hurt tht she din't even tell me how d paper was, but it's ok....wasn't even expecting!!!!! but i sincerely hope and pray tht she clears d exam this time around!!!! Mayb she's only rejuvenating from the exam mania of 2 -2.5 months tht she had been studying for....

Feeling thoda sa ajeeb but its ok. Gd luck!!

Personality Test!!

After a few days..back to blogging...have written 2 posts actually...but haven't posted it though!!!Have a look at this personality test......similar questions as other tests, however interesting results!!!....

http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/humanbody/mind/surveys/whatamilike/index.shtml


4 aspects that rule my personality according to the test results are:

1. Basically a Planner not a spontaneous person.
2. A very "Facts" person....not the Eureka Eureka types!!.Believes in knowing and working on facts rather than new Ideas.
3. Heart rules over the head!
4. Less outgoing and introvert....

My personality type is of a Nurturer.....

have a try.........

Siblings

What a unique way of God to add beauty to an individuals life!! Siblings - Two or more people are just bound together by something which is very inseparable (the mother who gave birth to both of them) yet very distinct (they have their own individualistic life), a relation which is very casual yet very special at the same time. Sisters or brothers often take each other for granted, (here "taking for granted" does not have a negative connotation). This thing called "taken for granted" is negative only in the in ital stages of relationship when there is extreme love, passion and jealousy , when u want the supreme position in the other person's heart; but over the years when u just become comfortable with the person, this thing called "taken for granted" acquires a new meaning---it becomes understanding, respect for each other and giving appropriate space. (Guys, hang on, this are not my thoughts, these are SRK's thoughts in today's Bombay Times and I kind of agreed with it and applied it to this topic.)

I was just wondering what happens if the siblings don't get along well with each other. I mean normal fights are something which no normal sisters/brothers can live without but what if it's beyond that ? It could be anything parental pressure (meaning a kind of subtle favouritism by the parents which is apparent only to the eyes of the person getting affected) agreed for mothers all five fingers are equal......but i have observed certain exceptions and so just putting it down here, or it could be societal pressure or just lack of mental compatibility between them.

Take a case----If the eldest daughter/son amongst all of them (assume there are 3 or more than that)has never strived to make this relationship beautiful with the younger one for whatever reasons (be it any reason as mentioned above parental pressure and all that....)....."Making beautiful" has got no meaning - it is all small - small things that count ---sharing deep secrets, going 4 a movie , shopping, trying to save ur skin in case of any trouble...it cud be nething...if all these thoughts are absent in the eldest & the younger one, how does the younger one pass it on to the youngest one?

Does he/she pass it on with the same lack of concern kind of thoughts......not caring whether he/she has had food, not caring if there's ne problem at school/college/work etc, just thinking that History repeats itself and should behave as the elder one has done with him/her or the middle one should make efforts to try and make the relation as superb as it can be......I think the younger one will work hard to see that the youngest one never feels similar to what he/she has felt...

Now if I add one more angle to this already complicated situation, assume that the youngest child is quite a loner and generally keeps to his/her own self except in front of close friends and now the middle child has been determined from his/her self experience that it doesn't feel good to have a elder one who seems not caring, so let's try and be a little protective, a little caring and have fun as some normal sisters/bros. do have. The problem arises...the younger one sees it as a breach of privacy or a lot of interference.....

All this may continue for a life time with neither the eldest one , neither the youngest one realizing the harm on the mind of the middle one...He/she may feel out of context in this life...may start feeling what kind of life is this when the blood relations are not turning out OK....is there problem with me ? Can't I try and be a good sister/brother? Why can't our relationship be as beautiful, be as normal, be as pure, be like real real pals.....If i can't be a good sibling, how can I be a good friend, good daughter or a good partner....If my own siblings can't trust me. how will outsiders confide in me? And believe me this sows the seeds of failure in one's personal life......

I don't think most of you'll will be able 2 understand this post (not because of my writing skills!!!!!)but because this is again a very exceptional situation which hardly people come across....but I have seen and witnessed it and believe me it's a very very normal house hold...like yours and mine...it's nothing different except of course the missing chatters of the siblings!!!!!!!!!!And how I wish to change all of it there....but somethings are just beyond us........

Will post in later....bbye

This is my review....

Hi all

Ya did see Laga chunari mein daag....and wid the college friend (refer my earlier post for the utter confusion )...i will try and give u guys my take on the movie...before i had gone 4 the movie...i had read TOI review which was a measley 2 star...so i was cursing myself for booking the tickets before the reviews (and thanks to the multiplexes...for the exorbitant rates they charge, that u end up feeling guilty!!!!)...Sunday morning, as soon as I read TOI review, i logged onto the net and read up a few other reviews...and all gave a simlar sob story. I was feeling horribly that i will have 2 sit for this 3 hour torcher....but the fact that i was going with my dearest friend eased me off......

And somehow I liked the movie..it's not that bad as the reviews have made it out to be...it's got amazing performances and a sound story line (I mean, the story is ok but has got it's own reflections and hindsights to it.)

The performances were actually mind blowing...

Rani Mukherjee was perfect...(haven't seen Black in theatres, so am not comparing and whatever little i saw on TV was not making too much sense to me, so i switched it off thinking that I will not be doing justice to the movie which is so well acclaimed..)

Konkana was very graceful...she reminds me of Kajol...has got her own dark looks charm and i am glad she made it big in this "fair n lovely" India.

Junior AB, can't describe him in words....because I cross my hearts and say that I love him....he was hardly there in 2-3 shots and a song....but made his presence felt...dunno about others but on my heart it did....Luv him like crazy and a am jealous of the Miss World besides him...

Kunal Kapoor comes across as a stud...and he is no doubt...acting skill are awesome ...did remind me of RDB..

Mrs. Bacchan was as usual - the silent, serene and composed persona...ya sh did have certain very hard dialogues but wid few words...and she did a 110% job...Anupam Kher was the father still looking out for a male child and his character hurt me--that means he did his job the best..

The story was very real I guess...and can say real because have a read a few books on this subject which are true stories...It just boils down to one thing " U make choices in life, there is no such thing as destiny or luck". Rani Mukherjee's character makes a choice as a woman and she lives with it completely....There's lot of strength and weakness in her character which is potrayed beautifully...It was all about Survival and not for this time it was not about survival of the fittest but survival of the weakest.....It just shows the kind of work people can take up for nothing but simple, Right to a normal living...it was saddening....

Abhishek did act very well, but it was the most artificaial role in the movie, because Indian men are yet to come of age to behave as what he did...Indian men still would prefer beauty over brains. So be it, Iam not complaining, they have their choices to make but in the meantime if they could just peep within themselves and think that they are in the 21st century and should try and walk hand in hand and not keep her behind at every stage in life.....Let me not get too nervy with some of these MCP's.....I will give them their desired break....

Another thing that has caught my attention lately is the "Lead India" initative. Liked the concept. Hope it's all transparent and fair and somehow i belive that it is fair. The 3 mumbai finalists are very smart leaders....having the right mix of determination, confidence, attitude,managerial skills and all of it. Their passion is too mind boggling and would really luv to imbibe myself with those qualitties...hats off to Rahul Bose, Monica M, Ujjawal B. They have done great work in their individual capacities..especially Ujjawal who kiked his fat salary job to work in a NGO...This is what i call passion. Kudos!!!!!!!!

feeling sleepy.....i sleep like a log now-a-days.....(am vacationing :-))will try and post more on them later....bbye...

ciao

....Wishes- to be fulfilled!!!!!!

Hi, there...just realised that all my previous posts were just too Karan Johar types....(he makes you dream but though thru a lot of tears!!!). Too much of senti stuff, life is already damn complicated, if we think so much, God Bless us!

Do all of us have certain secret desires? They could be very realistic and achievable and they could be far - fetched too........I have a ot many and they are pretty simple to get but unfortunately the kind of environment I have been (will not say conservative, but overtly protective and Work is worship kinda attitude) has made it difficult to fulfill these wishes....

1. Wanna travel...travel across the entire country from top to bottom and to the eastern parts too....Wanna specifically see Leh, Ladakh, Srinagar, Chandigarh, Delhi, Chamba, Chardham, Shimla -Kullu- Manali ( these places are not so on my wish list for the simple reason, I hate crowds and these people are like proper proper tourists places ), Sikkim, Gangtok, Darjeeling, Jaisalmer, Udaipur, Kerala, Kanyakumari.....How could I forget Himalayas..Kailash Mansorver..doing all kinds of adventure sports...

I know for this I just need to go to a good agent..theer's one just opposite to my residence ..Raj travels...the problem is not that..problem is about timing and company...mum and pa are just not interested to move out of home, sis is busy studying for board exams in diwali..i am a big time lukkhi (mumbaiya word for "useless") bcoz I have got loads of time before I join my new company...and mom - dad are hesistant to send me alone...friends - u know...all of them are not free at the same time.... Sometime in life, I will see all of these places, be it alone but I will do it!!!!

2. To get my passport done....this is the biggest pain I have gone thru yaar....how many proofs do they want...There's a slight problem with the name and surname on my birth certificate and all other documents, so these guys are irritating me to no extent...they are telling me to keep my name as it is on the birth certificate by filing affidavit and newspaper ads and etc etc.. and I am too reluctant to do it..bcoz I love my name as it is on all my marksheets and as u guys are seeing it...so I told them to get lost, I will not leave this country because I love my name too much too change it. Here's this another desire that remains to be fulfilled....

3. I completed CA...many ppl do it ; guys, believe me for the 3 -3.5 months that we are studying like 10-12 hours a day...it just makes a dead when the exams r going to approach--we don't realize anything sleep, hunger, dressing sense just nothing seems to matter...at the end of it, +ve results are like heaven for us..i had tears seeing the word PASS on my desktop...its really a mission accomplished. Coming to the point, getting our Membership no....our institute has whole lot of forms to be filled for anyhting we want to do as professionals..so before we start doing professional activities, we need a membership no. for that we have this Form 2. No my desire is not to fill this form (that I have already done), my desire is to change the first line of the form. It says,

Dear Sir,

I beg to apply that my name be entered in the Register of Members.

(and the form continues for a good 7-8 pages....)

Gimme a break, I have legitimatly cleared an examination of international repute, why do u want me to beg to do what this exam is supposed to help me do!!!!!

Hence, here it goes - my desire is to make the institute fellas realise that their students should not be made beggars at their own school...plzzzzz

4. Another wish, I really really hope I atleast fulfill this one....to continue with my blog till I die....swear....for me as person, it has helped so I know I will.....

5. This one is surely impossible for each one of us...to end hypocrisy on this earth....i just hate hate hate..such people.....there are some whom I very close to also but have never really told them, for fear of hurting them.

6. To do a Ph D....I keep telling everybody, that when I grow a bit old and don't have much capacity left to work...I will again take up studying and Reserach....I know its wierd..but that's the way I am...If not a formal Ph D...I hope atleast can do it informally..that's by learning and teaching...hopefully!!!!!

....ther are lots of such innate desires that have...post in more smtime later...just got a sms from one of my friends..her granny has expired...dunno shoud I call right a way ..it's almost 11.45..not that time matters right now...but the question I have to think is what to say? It's difficult to pull out friends from such emotional crisis...and I am worst at consoling people...so just lemme think what to do....bbye...